Mom fell into a deep sleep around 12am and she has slept the entire day. She has had some pain and they gave her pain meds. They have to turn her every so often and its difficult for her. I won’t get too graphic, but its very had to endure. Luckily, afterwards she just keeps snoozing. She has not opened her eyes at all today, but yesterday she was awake all day and perhaps she is just wiped. It has been good to see peaceful sleep. The one time she was semi awake, she did not know who I was, that was very hard. But I know that is to be expected and its okay – I’m dealing with it like a trooper. Tomorrow will be a brand new day and perhaps she will have some moments of consciousness. in all truth, I would rather she save some of her energy for Steve so they can have some time together. I’m looking forward to seeing him myself . .. nobody gives hugs like you big brother!
Aunt Betty left this morning, and it was difficult for her to leave. But I am so grateful she got to come. She must have channeled some of my Aunt Sara’s wisdom, because she gave me such peace and comfort.
I’ve spent a good deal of my day, wandering the grounds, praying and seeking guidance on tough decisions. I had a wonderful talk with my pastor this morning, and am again reminded of why he is our spiritual leader at our church – what wisdom and compassion! What a great man of God he is – and to know that I, just one of hundreds at our church, am special and unique to him is amazing. Then to think that out of the gazillions of people in the world, I am even more special to God! What amazing peace He gave me today with the people he brought in front of me and the words He planted in my head – Be Still and Know I am God. I got in under control Lori Lynn!!! So cool.
I worry about Ken, he is so tired and worn. He just clings to me when he is here, he needs the companionship and lots of hugs and touches. He is my hero and I will always look out for him.
Well, I am tired and I am sure this is quite emotional for all of you to read. And although I have tears at times, I am also so full of joy because I know that He is God and I am not. And that is a great relief!
Love to you all and thank you for each and every way you support and love me. Oh, and I forgot to mention that last nite around 2am, I got up to go to the kitchen for a drink and Wacky Jacky, the night nurse said hey there sister, you look twisted – you’re a twisted sister! I couldn’t help but crack up! I told her about our “gang” of rebel women and that we even had a website. I’m gonna show it to her tonite when she comes in.
I got to tell you that this place is awesome. I never knew there were places like this. I could go on and on, not only is this place awesome (hospice) for the patients, considering why you are here, but the care that is given to family is bar none. I’m already planning to train Drew to be a therapy dog like Nick was so we can do the Hospice care center in NashVegas.
Love,LoLo